Oh, my brain...

So. I've been avoiding SPN this week. At first I thought it was because I've been busy doing other things, or because my interest in a few other fandoms has been recently revived, or because it's getting to the end of the season and my SPN obsession will fade a bit over the hiatus.

In reality? I don't think any of these things are causes, but symptoms. I'm avoiding. I watched the last episode, but I didn't really feel like I absorbed it. I've been meaning to watch it again all week and haven't. Then, as much as I've been looking forward to watching the finale tomorrow night, I randomly picked up a shift at work instead. This is not logical behavior.

I think that the breakdown of Sam and Dean's relationship has effected me way more than I thought it did, and I don't know what to think of that.